Re: woe is me

[janet paterson <janet313@xxxxxxxxxxx>]

At 12:41 2000/07/24 -0500, ray 'n' me wrote:
>> from our physical bodies no
>> but we are not limited to them are we?
>no
>> didn't buddha have something to say about this?
>inseperable
>oneness of mind and body

yes, while we are here
but there comes a time when the physical is left behind
by what?
going where?

>psychosomatic medicine provides details
>confirmation
>the influence is profound
>but
>"when the mind is clear, the horizon is visible"

i think that's what i meant when i said
i don't have to understand how
but i know if i keep my eyes open
i will see

keeping that clarity is a constant non-effort

>some say heaven and hell exist on this earth
>i can't deny it
>for some
>parkinsons is a hell so deep
>they cannot cry out

and again thinking back to paige
i feel that it is not the pd that is making the hell
it is the way we look at it
the way we look at our world

in other words
wisiwig
or the self-fulfilling prophecy
on the thought distortions of negative or depressed thinking

>but -- also -- every day
>people starve or suffer from warfare
>peace is longed for
>who will care? and make a difference?
>no matter what your beliefs
>care for someone
>and one person does make a difference
>we are all connected
>and it isn't just electroniccally...

yup
absolutely
but if we are not limited to our physical bodies
how important is pd or starving in the big picture?
what are we really doing here?

>> i determine to live with hope, courage and confidence.
>> because
>> why?
>i determine
>because saying it out loud
>is a form of committment
>you will hold me responsible for my statements
>when times get hard
>i will be reminded
>i determine
>because it takes effort
>to live
>with those aspects of faith
>no matter what the circumstances
>when i can no longer muster those qualities
>i'm dead
>living dead
>you know from your own experience
>with clinical depression
>what life is like without these valuable things

yup
i guess i've never felt the need to 'declare' it as such
but then again
i probably do that with every word i write

i see and feel degrees of the 'living dead' sadness
all around me and ache for the unnecessary pain
which i think is why i feel so compelled to share

>> 'too' close?
>> sez who?
>when i get that giddy feeling
>like i've said too much to the critics
>and there is a weightlessness
>in free fall
>and there is a brief wait for the bottom
>and in that briefness there is a lifetime

how can we say too much?
who are the critics?
what can they do?


i hope you are not regretting starting this conversation
with the ever-questioning ms p!

what a treasure this cyber-family is!

janet

janet paterson
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