Re: PD and how it affects me.

[Greg Sterling <sterling@xxxxxxxx>]

Hey Bern,
Take it easy on yourself.  It's a new day, and one day closer to a cure.  You 
are not a terrible person.

Greg
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From: "bernard.shaw" <bernard.shaw@xxxxxxxxx>
To: <PARKINSN@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx>
Sent: Wednesday, February 07, 2001 3:49 AM
Subject: PD and how it affects me.


> I want to kick out at the injustice. Why me?  I too often ask! Sleep is
> denied me. Pains I cannot describe. Cranps that pester me both by day and by
> night. Why do my pills not kick in on time. I feel awful and deprimiert. My
> wife needs her sleep and her health worries me, she has just come out of
> hospital how does she cope? Why is it that my mouth is so dry by day and
> saliva soaks my pillow at night.? Why do I itch both by day and by night? I
> need a walking stick to get about when and if I do go out.Where do the
> nightmares come from even when I can get some sleep? Why do I get blocks and
> freeze in the middle of a busy pedestrian crossing.? Why can I not pick up a
> cup without shaking its contents on to a clean table cloth? I mess my pant
> and am at times incontinent, Why?  Why do I attack a person that I do not
> know? In my youth I knew the deepest poverty( my poem, "Cardboard Box. " was
> written from my lifes story. So why did I attack Ivan? Where is the sympathy
> that I should show to all mankind? What gives me the right to criticise a
> fellow Parkie? I have done this before. I need help not pecuniary help but
> spiritual. Why am I becoming a bitter grumpy old man? If there is any one on
> the list that can answer my questions....I would feel very happy. I used to
> be a happy man but it seems so long ago. I ask myself once more. Why Me?
> Ivan my apologies for being so spiteful you too have your problems. My sense
> of being once very poor lies too deep to forget. My pride that I was able
> with help to overcome my so desperate situation has made me blind to other
> peoples needs. Bern.....Peace
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