Re: To Ivan /sweats...anger

[Ivan M Suzman <cureit@xxxxxxxx>]

Thank you Barb Mallut, Dennis Greeneand DebbiWHite.

 I HATE PD today!!  I feel like throwing plates and smashing them . can
you relate?  Feel like my temper is going to explode.
Don't know why these feelings are dominating.  What happened to peace??

  I'm feeling trapped and depressed today..have a fever, sweating
whenever my meds kick in. get soaked-FIVE T-shirt changes today.  This
sweating is driving me nuts. Wonder if itsNADH....why am I sweating?  Is
it Sinemet? Is it Mirapex.

Taking 27 pills a day.  Managing is getting overwhelming.  No VIvian like
Don has.

   Looked in the mirror at a VERY tired unshaven man who looks roadweary.
Getting up every three hours at night is taking a toll on me. Looking
drawn.

I am  So pissed at the NPF not answering me. Wish the LIstMEMBERS could
put the screws to the NPF decision-makers.  Wish the  Listmembers could
fax and call and write I am going to post again on NPF tricks.

 Feel so frustrated by having to go to City Welfare...where is the
miracle-it's your letters about massage,  and Debbi White who noticed
that I lost my kitty last year in the fire...
Thank you for writing.... a ray of hope on a black day of gloom.

IVAN
^^^^^^GREETINGS  FROM^^^^^^^^^^
Ivan Suzman  47/10   cureit@xxxxxxxx
Portland, Maine   land of lighthouses     deg. F
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On Sat, 11 Oct 1997 13:53:04 -0400 Barbara Mallut
<Barb_MSN@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx> writes:
>Ivan, m'friend....
>
>I've been thinking 'bout ya the past few days and want to let ya know
>how much
>I like you and appreciate you.  Respect, too....
>
>We're both walking on similar paths, and are heading towards the same
>destination, but we're each getting' there in our own way.  Neither
>route is
>the wrong one... just different from the other.  I value the
>differences in
>you that makes you so uniquely YOU and enjoy the glimpses I get of you
>traveling your path even as I travel mine.
>
>I admire your tenacity immensely (even tho it sometimes frustrates me)
>and
>that determination to get accomplished those things important to you.
>
>I treasure your wonderful way with words when you take a mental flight
>of
>fancy and share it with us here on the List.  When you paint a verbal
>picture
>for us, I can see everything you describe down to the tiniest, most
>colorful
>detail.  THAT'S the power of your words, Ivan....
>
>Finally, I recognize I tend to jump on your back when you come out of
>what I
>consider to be 'left field" and tell someone the "correct" way to
>speak.
>Please know my response is more of a "knee-jerk" one rather than a
>spiteful
>one meant to cause you any pain.  I'd never want to do THAT to anyone,
>much
>less someone like you whom I really care about.
>
>You're "good people," Ivan.... and I'm glad to know you.
>
>Love to ya.....
>
>Barb Mallut
>barb_msn@xxxxxxx
>