Sv: hi (fwd)

[Sonia Nielsen <sonianie@xxxxxxxxxxxxx>]

Dear Linda,
Please don`t blame yourself. I`m sure you have been a wonderful daughter to
your father, if not you would never write this very touching and cry for
help.
As you are feeling now my dear is what I felt when my beloved husband died
from a heart attack 10 years ago only 51 years old, he had suffered for 5
years.I cared for him all the time and sometimes I was tired and lost my
temper - had I done enough?? Today I know both you and I have done our very
best. It is the human nature to doubt, the best help I got was from my GD
and my priest. You are in my thoughts and I`ll pray for you.
Best wishes
Sonia N
Denmark
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> Fra: Barbara Patterson <patterso@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx>
> Til: Multiple recipients of list PARKINSN <PARKINSN@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx>
> Emne: hi (fwd)
> Dato: 30. december 1997 01:45
>
> ---------- Forwarded message ----------
> Date: Tue, 30 Dec 1997 00:37:00 -0500
> From: Linda <ljj@xxxxxxxxxxx>
> To: patterso@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
> Subject: hi
>
> I hope I am writing to the correct address, I see you are one of the
> owners of the parkinson's list.I just joined.I cant wait to get the
> mail.
>
> Please forgive me but i am very grief stricken. My dad suffered with
> parkinson's for almost 10 years that we know of. Friday,Dec. 26th he had
> cardiac arrest and died.I miss him terriably. I am also very gulit
> ridden, I often lost patience with him and I am just beside myself in
> pain and self hatred. I just loved him so much. My mom and my brother
> and i watched him go from a strong independant man to a frail, almost
> helpless dependant man. he was only 66. I just miss him horriably.
>
> the shock of him going so fast is very painful. he was doing his
> physical thearphy at the PT clinic which he loved.We could see he was
> doing so much better. He did it 3 times a week. He had just finished his
> 4 laps around the in side of the building (He walked) and sat down . He
> said he didnt feel good and slumped over.The family was not there. I
> wish so much i could of said goodbye.They worked on him for 42 mins at
> ER but were not able to bring him back.
>
> can you help me ? Can you or someone else tell me if parkinsons caused
> his heart to arrest ? He had 3 angioplasies in a few months time 9 years
> ago, but there was no heart problems at his last check up a couple of
> months ago.  Does parkinsons cause the heart muscle to lose the ablity
> to function ? Dad was on a depression med,cardizim and of course the
> sentiment.....he had trouble with eldapryl, it made him make a lot of
> facial movements.....he also did not have the tremors,but he was very
> stiff, mask- like stare, quite speech patterns, stooped
> over,halluicanations, however, we had noticed he was so much better in
> the last  few weeks. Is this the way it happens in parkinson's ? Does
> death come suddenly ?
>
> I am so sorry to go on and on, it was really a shock to lose him like
> this.I m hoping this wonderful list will give me comfort and answers.
> oh yes, we  donated his eyes, they could not take anything else because
> of his parkinsons.The funeral is Monday , I am trying to be strong.
> please write soon,
> Linda